Remember when...

I said I needed to give up on certain "nothing" relationships? Welllllllll... I did. Pretty quickly after that post actually. I think within the week, though I don't remember exactly...days have flown by since then! And you know what? I'm HAPPY! The first day...I sobbed hysterically. I couldn't breathe. I felt like I was going to die. The second day, I weeped, and I let the hurt settle into me. Then the third day came...and the pain was gone. Like a match, the pain burned bright for a moment and then was snuffed out. I gave it a while, this feeling of contentment, thinking maybe I was just shoving the pain down. So whenever I felt a tinge of pain, I gave myself over to it, thinking, "Oh okay! There's the pain, here we go! I'm gonna cry!" But I didn't. It was a pinprick of pain and then gone. After the sadness was gone, the anger set in. To be brief, since I don't feel like dwelling on the past month and half worth of angry break up music, dude was a dick and not worth my time and effort. Things are going so much better now. Now that I'm not focusing my energy on Him (which is how I will now forever refer to Him as), I'm caught up on my bills, doing better in school, juggling two jobs, AND doing a lot of stuff for my internship. I'm super tired and running off of fumes, but so incredibly fulfilled and happy. I don't even have time to watch that much television anymore. The last day I had off...I spent it cleaning and organizing!!!! I feel amazing. I don't hate myself anymore. I ate Wendy's yesterday and I was disappointed in myself due to health and money reasons, but I didn't beat myself up over it. That's a big thing for me. I'm so excited to see what the rest of this year holds.