I hate myself

Well, okay, I don't hate myself all the time.

But I do hate myself when I eat McDonalds, or lots of pizza, or when I sit on my butt all day and avoid anything real.

Things like working out, educating myself, socializing...

Instead I watch Scrubs or How I Met Your Mother or South Park...and don't get me wrong, these are all shows that I greatly enjoy. But this is a like an everyday occurrence. All day.

So I want to change. Like...I REALLY want to change. I want to get over my laziness (because really that's what it is) and I want to CHANGE.

I want to be healthy. I want to eat more vegetables and fruits than meat and pasta. I want to get ACTIVE. Not necessarily run, because I hate running, and not just because I'm unfit. I have boobs. Running hurts even in a bra. But I will run, if it helps me. I want to spend my time reading, not watching TV.

I want to treat myself the way I always imagine I will treat my own children. Feed them healthy food, encourage and enrich their bodies and minds to grow, express my love for their well being...

I WANT TO CHANGE.