Trying

There are some things that I need to keep trying on. Graduating, getting healthy, paying bills... And there are other things I need to learn to give up on. Like certain relationships. Relationships that are toxic. Or relationships that aren't toxic. They aren't anything. They just exist with no idea of a future. No "expectations". Fuck you. Sometimes expectations are helpful and guide. Expectations can change, but without them at all, you will just float through life and nothing will stick. Friends, lovers, happiness, life... Making plans are okay sometimes. I might just have to give this one up, to save my heart and time.